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The sense of being unable to help my friends when their in need of help burns like fire . The pain of hearing them being hurt feels like a stab in the back with a knife that was heated up . If I was the cause of their problems and I didn't know about it till something happens and I found out , it feels like I was thrown into a sea of needles and salt was poured on the wounds and and lemon juice was poured over the wounds again , then being cut by shattered glass and dunked into lime juice , and left in the middle of the desert to be eaten alive by the vultures .... Pure torture ......